As for you Juan...there's a past blog post about you on here...i can't begin to tell you...how much i SERIOUSLY miss you...i think if things seriously work out..i'm just gonna cry in your arms...whenever i see you. i wont know what too do with myself...but just cry....i can't believe i'm writing this right now...i just wanna see you. i wanna go back in my past...i wanna go back...sit on the ground outside...and talk...in your lap...i wanna take walks with you and see all the Christmas light's...and hold hands and laugh and dance in the middle of the street...i wanna watch football games with you and study together...i wanna fall asleep in each other's arms. and kiss for hours...i wanna surprise you with cookies...i wanna wear your jackets...and you too tell me everything's gonna be alright... i just want you back...that's ALL i want... for my birthday... for my 16th birthday...just let me have you back....i miss you so much JAM. it's not even funny....i wanna spend another Christmas with you...and just watch the star's...and sit in the grass....i wanna eat dinner with you and hold your hand under the table....PLEASE just give me all of this back...because i'm still completely in love with you....i just want you back....:'''( i wanna beable to sit on your lap against...  i want to be able to laugh with you over the stupidest stuff. and cry when i miss you so much....your nothing but everything....121011...can i just GO BACK...please.....