November, 17th 2011.

So today. is not my day. i dont understand life sometimes. how it can just stay the way it is. HOW nothing ever changes. how people dont change I just need hope. and courage to get through this all I WAS OKAY WITHOUT YOU. but now everything is tearing me down. When you came back. it tears me down. But i'm okay  with out. you. oh i promise you i'm okay. YES Ill miss you. BUT i'm so much happier without you brenn. SO much happier. so. you'll never see this. but sometimes i wish. you would fuck off and realize what you have is gold.